Right from my schooling i have been the underdog. People would just walk through me...literally...I was invisible. yes...Well... I was not that bad...I had my friends though...and thats the only reason I am so much a person. And my college...no comments... :) I have never felt the urge to do something out of the box.. Something amazing...never..throughout my life... i used to see ppl, my fellow mates do so many things and i used to think they are big show offs and I never had the guts to try what they doing.. I dint have any dreams to become something extraordinary...it just happened in the flow...But one thing that i am very proud of myself is I am so hardworking. Yeah I know...now you think I am the second guy i mentioned above...no.. atleast not yet...
Right now I am a software professional in one of the esteemed corporations of the world. How I got there? yes.. I changed..I dreamt a dream and i wanted it to happen... i was desperate,,, i was obsessive... hardworking... and it happened...First time in my life I felt fulfilled and I liked that feeling.. it was like seeing the greatest sunset,,,,smelling the most beautiful flower.. Yes I know.. it does have its side effects... I am not this boring before :)
Okay...Its that time of your life where everyone looks down at you...Where they judge you as though they are your fathers and mothers. Keep throwing their golden advice, golden words of wisdom. Of course, nothing wrong happened to me. It is about a decision i made. It was nothing actually...3 months ago I was in Las Vegas, USA and I made a decision to come back to my dear country and now that has become the highly idiotic decision of the century. I see ppl looking at me like and poor dog hit by a lorry. yes.. it is because of the recession monster that is lurking almost every nook and corner of the world. I get ppl asking me 'US le avalo mosama va irukku? jananga ellam nadu road la vanthutaangalaamey??' (Is it so bad in US? I hear ppl living in the middle of the streets) So many ppl in india have been living in streets for decades and they were not concerned then. It was kinda funny, i dint laugh then of course... I heard my aunts say 'unakku ponnu kedaikarthu kashtam. software field romba mosama irukkaamey.' (you wont get a gal. software industry is worst now') My aunt doesnt know to turn on the tv and now she is talking about software industry going awry. Well i am very grateful for so much concern. But where were these ppl when I was struggling? My mum and dad almost fret to their death to bring me up to this position and no one came to help us. So I am not going to mind them.
Now coming back to my decision of 'coming back'. I was in US for 14 months. Dont get me wrong.. it is an amazing country with fantastic ppl. And i did earn handsomely there. And why did i come back? yes,..the same dream again...somehow i felt that it is not my place...I have seen some ppl there striving hard to get a job, desperately wanting to settle there just for money. Ppl who are ready to lose everything to stay tehre: friends, family, home...I am not judging anyone mind you..They have their own reasons and interests and I have mine...And I feel that my place is here...Of course I will earn 5 times lesser.. Hell I can survive...Yes.. my parents were happy that i am with them..I can see it in my mom's eyes. And that feels like a billionaire.
The next thing i am planning 2 do is my MBA. I have had this in my mind for quite some time now and I thing now is the right time to do it. So i have registered in a GMAT class. Lets see how that comes out for me. I am signing off now and I am very happy that I found another way to whine. :) Dont worry my next blog wil be very interesting unlike this one.. Ciao till next time....
